steel sixteen
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
bit by bit,
all eight bits,
we're all haplessly stuck in,
our limbo days.
our heated limbo days.
smells like a baby prostitute
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Friday nights and Saturdays without work are my social life revivals. I haven't been meeting anyone that is my age group recently, I miss stupid gag-jokes, groundless judging, gossip and just general trash talk.
Friday night dinner with KJ at Claudia's Bakerzin and bread was good. Watched My Ex, this boring as hell Thai horror movie that made us cover our ears and eyes, and I kinda hated it because it made no sense. Main lead's fucked up. Cliche storyline, music just scared us shitless, and the blood was free-for-all. Just, don't date Thai girls next time, boys. Learn from shows like Shutter and Alone and My Ex. Girls in Singapore will only nag and spend all your money. We won't sit on your shoulders for life or dig out our fetus or kill our twin sister so we can love you cause our we're noobxz. Also, we took the nightrider bus home, which was semi-exciting and very tiring at the same time. I'm just quite glad no matter how late I'm out, as long as I'm at Vivo I'd be able to be home. :D
Out with Jiemin today and we were nuts as usual. I miss my Carls' Jr at FEP like a police would miss his gun after a stun-gun replacement. Jiemin would agree. Bought clothes, happy as hell cause they were cheap and basic and good I guess. Flea at *scape was blah but alright. Had Superdog subsitute for Carls' but it was weak. Wrecked havoc at Taka's Gramophone looking at the "indie" section and not buying any. KOC'S OLD ALBUM IS IN. YAYYYYYYY HAHAHA. Waiting for non US import though because lao niang is poor.
And tadah.
Feeling weird and delinquent now because everybody is studying and meeting new people at JC and I'm still working and slacking around. Makes me feel like I'm a stupid dropout that I'm not because I know I can get into any other JC that I want. Then again, its all good because JC just sounds like the type of gig that is not for me.
So I'm all good, just insecure.
Jenny Lewis and Au Revoir Simone makes me emofaced. Gotta stop listening to the ladies.
yup
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
so lyk I went to see Shinee.
2am overnight queuing, 36 hours of staying awake and most importantly 60dollars for a MINI ALBUM that i don't even like...
All fucking worth it. I'm so fangirly its nutballs.
Went with Kt and her volleyball friend, HuiCheng (hwee-che-ng) and it was mad fun because we were all crazy. When we were queuing there were weird people in front of us that made us half pissed off because they were kinda like... spoiled and really just insane and there were this group of very nice people behind us who even fanned us and stuffs. Nice. Esther and friend helped us buy breakfast which was just really really really nice of them because we were starving and i didnt even have dinner that night cause i was working.Awesome.
Queue was nuts, we went at 2am and we were the 600+th people to be there. Globalization is a funny thing.
We took pictures from 4am onwards to about 6am of our shagged faces and its damn funny because as the time goes on our faces become weirder looking and my eyes really become smaller. And like obviously the one that is on the left and is not me or kt is Huicheng. See my small eyes, this was at 4am.
Oiling. Kt was like, "HOMG IM SO DARK". Funny.
5am. Smaller eyes. Getting hotter = no jacket + tied up hair.
6am, eyes non-existent.
Going up the stairs which was just really hot to get ripped off.
Happy ttm. :DDDDD
Majorly overloadingly happy.
Sadfaced girls who 1) didn't want to pay or 2) were too late and not within 1000. They wanted to come in for FREE and the organizers almost allowed but in the end no. Oh wells, there wasn't any performance anyway which was just disappointly but ugh.
Nuts and tired. About 11? We mostly fell asleep while waiting because they were playing the same 5 songs w/o HC and my favourite Y.O.U and we were just sick of it and tired.
Happy lor. Look at my eyes man, ew.
When they came, i didn't take many photos because 1) I was too short, 2) My photography skills sucks, 3) I was too short, but Huicheng who was 170+ cm took like many many good photos and I was really just being too obedient to take any closeups since they didn't allow but like... Kt and HC did.This is my ONLY decent photo, i'm not cut out for photography, ironically. ANYWAY CLICK TO ENLARGE. They are so tiny my goodness. But their clothes were really pretty.
Then when we went to queue up for the sign, Onew's smile, was just dazzingly and it made my whole year. It just very (^^ + :D) and literally mega-watt. No kidding. It looks really good in photos and all but in real life it just kills. After i saw him, his smile and his "COME! I WANNA SIGN YOUR ALBUM NAO" look, , i totally did not realise there was a lady beside him and I totally didn't realise at all that she tore my ticket as supposed to until HC told me that the lady spoiled her damn pretty Onew picture which i'm gonna steal and print and stick on my everywhere. His face just lit up the whole place.
So i said"잘 지냈어요?" which mean something like, "How are you" or literally "Have you been well?" Which is very rational as compared to "HOMG ILOVEYOU" to Onew and he just said, "YUP!" in this superbly enthusiastic voice and I just forgot whatever that happened next because i was just fangirling in my head. I think he said "Thank you!" and smiled but i just.....blanked.
Everyone were really shiny literally because idk, they were really goodlooking. It was like going into a goldshop and looking at pretty statues or necklaces or going into Gramophone and seeing the boxset you have wanted for years on display and available. According to Kt, Taem was super shy and all and laughed at her funny korean i just told her to say and HC said that he said something to her even because she called him "OPPA!" and we all agree that he must have been shocked cause she must have looked older than him. Minho initiated handshake, homfg and Jonghyun was just daaaaaaaaamn fucking goodlooking. Key was just pretty and kinda scary imo because he didnt ^^ or :D, just :). HAHA.
Ohkay, exciting, but that is all i guess till HC sends me the pictures and I am so freaking tired. Accumulating sleep is what I'm doing now and its just horrible. I even rented Pushing Daisies S1 and its gonna be killllllling me.
Well, life is good. :D
p.s. did i mention that the fanclub did a really good job of organizing everybody? They were so damn smart and nice and rational and all. THUMBS UP. And warner too. Love the person who were giving us instructions because she was so direct and clear and fair and mean and all. Reminded me of Ivy especially when she said something like, "I'm very strict about that" HAHAHA. LOVE HER MAN. (Both of em) (And also, I'm so gonna try and work for Warner Music.)
ninna nanna
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Why do I see so many strangers everyday?
Its so queer, how i take the same bus, mrt, walk the same route everyday along with many others who are probably doing it as a routine too but everyday all I see are still strangers!
And isn't it funny how we always ask people for opinions when we already know the answers? Why do we always ask people things like, "homg my nose is flat right?" and when they agree we get really pissed off? If its all just for comfort, then why do we expose our crack to be filled by others knowing that the risk of being cracked further is higher?
Why do i always think that I don't need to work tomorrow?
Is it good that someone said you lost weight? Doesn't it too mean that you were fat before?
Why is Taemin getting so adorable out of a sudden?
Why is Pink Martini's album so expensive?
Why do i feel so discontented?
25 and hoping for a ticket out
Friday, January 29, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Shinee should just stay online and never step in real life. WHY ARE THEY INVADING OUR SOIL.
Fuck it.
PCD was right, be careful what you wish for because you just might fucking get it.
This is going to be my last fandom, I'm out of all these star-chasing crap. I rather The Killers cancel out on me than being so dilemmatic.
Angsty dwarf free-running, oh man.
busy as hell
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Damn bad earworm with an exciting chorus that goes : ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT!
I like.
So I'm gonna go to TP's Visual Comm. Exciting. I have no idea how I'm gonna cope with the madness because my painting, drawing, designing skills are not exactly near good or maybe even acceptable if i'm harsh on myself.
But mumma told me, mumma told me, "You go to school to learn and if you're already so good then what is the point of schooling?" SO I AM READY FOR FAILURE!
But for now, more work. I'm still at OUB now. But its getting better because Taufiq the manager is back and NO MORE FUCKING JAZZ! WHOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I can be like, "Taufiq play happy music please...." and he'd still play stuffs like Snow Patrol. And Johnny talking to me now and he is funny as hell with his zombie jokes and all kinda stuffs. But there will be 4 people there from now on so I'm kinda like a disposable. Yknow, like the second liver.
I LOVE PIG LIVERS. YUM.
Hm.
AND LIKE VAMPIRE WEEKEND SAYS :
" WE MOSTLY WORK TO LIVE, UNTIL WE LIVE TO WORK"
in a song I forgot but I think it should be RUN.
peaceout. everyone go watch Fred on Youtube. stay away from the Yoona noonas.
familarity
Monday, January 25, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
in all seriousness
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Been reading about serial killers. Crazy stuffs, the female ones like Theresa Cross/Knoff and Belle Gunness. Its really true that females are the most evil.
Finally went out for some shopping and the Zara sales are gooood. Got myself more jeggings and some crazy forals from New Look. Exciting.
Never really said anything but I'm moving again soon. This year, i guess. Bigger house with the same room size, maybe relatively smaller.
My computer is fucked man, ugh.
and when you kill it's justice
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I talk before I thinkYou shoot before you knowwho's in your line of fireSo somehow we're the sameWe're causing people painbut I stand and take the blameand you s cr a m b l e to deny
Fortunately and excitingly, nothing much has been happening. Been hitting the low self-esteem pit, feeling the usual negatives being really fat and ugly and small eyed and really fat and all. Work is getting better all the time, jokes surfacing, more talk spouting, more fun, more familiarity I guess. It's all gonna end along with February though. Then free time starts and soon school will too.
Been looking at tattoos and feeling awful. I want one, but I don't know what. Its the bugging feeling when you bring loads of money to a shop to spend and find out that there's nothing you wanna buy. Desperation, stupidity, anger all rolled into one.
Then i totally forgot my parents are all against it.
Sigh.
Feeling all queasy nowadays because I feel kinda in limbo, waiting for things to happen, waiting for my horses to come carry me away to greener pastures. I feel like a ghost, kinda isolated.
Supper/Dinner with Jiemin today. Was totally nuts, ahaha. Ate, gossiped, drank coke and talked nonsense as usual. I don't like Frolick cause it melts even before i get to set my spoon into it. We walked home from Serangoon Gardens. Exciting. We used to just go to Carls' Junior at FEP everytime we go out because CJ is just damn good with their free refills (I LIKE) and non-veggie burgers(JIEMIN LIKE) but it closed down now and I'm all working so we only have like late-night activities. Oh wells.
I want freedays to start coming.
with a ruler and a calculator
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Why so tired today? Slept very late yesterday night right?No, I slept at one.Really? I heard you laughing when very late.LAUGHING? Do you know what I was watching?Yeah, Criminal Minds right. Thought it was weird why you were laughing too. Scared me.I WAS LAUGHING?Yeah!Oh ohoh OH! I was watching the Gag Reel. HAHAHAHAHA.
(Tomorrow. Wanted em today but I only had 3.10 left in my nets. fuck?)
